today (sept 4) was officially our last day in whistler
(this was confirmed by reliable sources)
since we thought yesterday was supposed to be our last
i guess you could say today was our bonus day
a whole extra day of holiday
yippee....not!
seeing as our bonus day now includes a gondola ride
i'm thinking i should a left when i had the chance!
i spent most of the morning worrying about it
my stomach in knots
bile rising in my throat
my mouth an acrid desert
my knees weak
and my heart pounding in my ears
whenever
i thought about getting on "the ride"
i'm not kidding either
i really considered hanging back today
yikes, don't say 'hanging'
back and forth my mind and spirit sparred
i did not want to scale that mountain!
no way
no how
no can do
however
it was not lyme that stood in my way
i am well enough
i am able enough
i am strong enough
no it is not lyme that would impede my ability today
it is FEAR
the choice is clear
how can i even consider allowing fear to hold me back?
my yesterdays have included the use of a wheel chair
my tomorrows may include many more
but
TODAY I AM ABLE...ain't nothing going to stand in my way!
"Come to the edge." he said
"We can't. We're afraid."
"We can't. We're afraid."
"Come to the edge." he said
"We can't. We will fall."
"We can't. We will fall."
"Come to the edge." he said
And they came...
our bonus day...
has been so much more than just a breathtaking ride up a mountain
our bonus day...
has been about facing whatever mountains stand in our way and trusting God to give us the courage and strength to scale them.
"when faced with a mountain, i will not quit! i will keep striving until i climb over it, find a pass through, tunnel underneath or simply stay and turn the mountain into a gold mine, with God's help."
our bonus day?
well, i wouldn't trade it for the world