February 26, 2008

THE ABSURDITY OF IT ALL

Had another appointment with the Infectious Disease Doc today.

He still refuses to acknowledge my American test results as credible.
He still acknowledges that I am physically and neurologically impaired.
He still denies that I have LD.

However, he did agree to prescribe the additional 4 weeks of IV treatment...
so even though he keeps insisting that I do not have LD, he is still treating me for it.
Anybody else see the irony in this?
Quite frankly, it's totally ridiculous and absurd.
But
Ultimately, I don't care what he thinks so much as I get what I need from him.
My options are limited now that DR M has retired.
This has left me feeling incredibly alone, vulnerable and scared.

It feels as though the ID Doc holds all the power especially given that DR M is now retired.

This has left me feeling incredibly alone and vulnerable and scared -

I am constantly bombarded with the threat that the ID Doctor can take away my treatment with one fell swoop. If he sees fit to refuse me additional treatment, I am powerless to stop it. He holds all the power...He is the King Pin and I am the pawn in this game.